I have been asking to know the good, the bad and the ugly about what I have bought as me, that I have been hiding from me, so I can choose something different if it isn’t working for me. One of the latest awarenesses that has come to me is how hard I have been trying to prove how loveable I am by doing for others as a manipulation to have them like me. I do TONS of stuff for others telling myself that I have no expectation (lie) when underneath is a frickin’ skyhigh ton of them which I hid from myself, but the energy of the expectation was always there. Of course the person I did all the stuff for didn’t reciprocate (surprise, surprise!) and then I can vilify them for “taking advantage of me” How twisted is that? So everything that is POD POC (the superheros of consciousness)!!!!! Time to choose something different!!!